I've been thinking it over and I decided I AM happy about my retirement, just a bit sad still at the thought of not seeing my co-workers on a daily basis, but I think the reason I'm feeling antisocial (as mentioned in yesterday's post) is because I'm really suffering job burnout. I don't feel like being around people too much. I have to deal with kids and the public a lot in my job and I always feel like hiding for a couple weeks after summer break begins. And summer break always gets here just in the nick of time!
I didn't want anyone to think that somehow I feel I am making a mistake by retiring. Not at all! I keep having these moments of angst and panic when I think how fast summer goes by, but then I realize that come the end of August, I'm going to be still getting to sleep in, not having to rush out and drive in whatever Ma Nature throws at us. Then the angst is replaced by a sort of calmness that comes over me. And then I'm hit with giddiness!
Just wanted you to know that!
I'm glad you've had this epiphany, Ginni! I must say that now that I'm retired EVERY night is Friday night! And while I do miss my colleagues, I realize I tend to remember just the good stuff about work, and believe me, there was so much more!
ReplyDeleteThe funny thing is Kathy...I won't officially be retired until I do the paperwork and school starts in August. So right now, I'm still just on summer vacation in actuality, but in my mind I know I'm retired!! I haven't even told my boss about this yet (most of my close co-workers know tho). I want to take the refresher course in July to keep my CDL license valid...so I'm not going to start the paperwork or write a letter of resignation/retirement until after the class. Boss has been kind of a shit about letting people take the class after they quit/retire...so I'm not going to do it officially until after the class. And I'll still be giving plenty of notice before school starts.
ReplyDeleteGin, it's a big change in your life - I think it's perfectly normal and expected to have mixed feelings about it all.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you, love,
XOXO